Pity, take pity on me.
'Cause I'm not half the man that I should be.
Always turning to run,
from the people I should not be afraid of.
And darling, you should know
that I have fantasies about being alone.
It's like love is a lesson,
that I can't learn.
I make the same mistakes at each familiar turn.
I know you can't hold out forever
waiting on a diamond and a tether
from a boy who won't swim
but who will dip his toe in
just to keep you here with him.
I've got this habit I abhor.
When we go out I'm always watching the door.
'cause if there's someone I'm gonna see
who could outdo the things you do to me.
And I know you can't hold out forever
waiting on a diamond and a tether
from a boy who won't fly
but who will take to the skies if he thinks you are about to say goodbye.
Pity, take pity on me.
'cause I'm not half the man that I should be.
And I don't blame you,
you've had enough,
of all these empty promises and countless bluffs.
'cause I know you can't hold out forever
waiting on a diamond and a tether
from a boy who won't jump when he falls in love.
He just stands with his toes on the edge
and he waits for it do disappear again.
["A Diamond And A Tether"- Death Cab for Cutie]

Apparently if you talk about things you're proud of/things you've accomplished/goals you're achieving etc. then you are bragging.

riiigghtt.
sorry if my success and happiness makes you bitter and/or jealous

drama drama drama.


makes me wonder if the 400+ views on my blog are from people who actually were interested, or people who were just lurrkiinngggg haha

whatever.

I have an overwhelming amount of things to do tonight
we're doing camera tests tomorrow for the makeup for the short film i'm working on.
we're filming Saturday-Tuesday.
Four 12 hr days in a row.. starting at 6:30/7am each day. yiikkeess.

I am so excited though.


lots of prep work and planning to do!

:-)

preeeettyy stoked on that little baby right there :-D

So, I've been really bad at blogging lately.
things have been supppeerr busy and I've been too lazy to get on here in my down time.
in the past two weeks I did one fashion photo shoot
one photo shoot for the band Sparks The Rescue (awesome guys, awesome band)
two music videos for And Then There Were None -- one of these videos is seriously the most amazing thing I've ever been apart of.
we shot it on part of the set from Alien vs Predator and it was also the set for a movie called Sunshine.
it was a spaceship thingy, super effing cool..

i have a million pics to upload, but the video is going to look like a movie.
i work with such an amazing director and crew, i love it!
we did two videos in one day for them, it was 15 1/2 hour day.. exhausting!

and then we did a video for Impending Doom.. which was a performance video..
so there were a bunch of their fans packed into this small ass room with a stage
it was like a hot box.. only not of weed.. of sweat and BO.. fucking gross.
A room full of sweaty teenage boys, no open doors or windows.
i could hardly breathe haha.
it was probably 95 degrees in the room, and like 80% humidity. AWFUL!
luckily, it was only like a 5hr shoot, instead of the normal 12hrs.

Monday we did a video for The Dangerous Summer,
we shot it at night in the mountains/woods in Malibu, and it was freezing cold..
it was a pretty cool shoot, aside from freezing my ass off and getting attacked by bugs haha

I should have blogged about this as it was all happening,
as i am too lazy now to recall all of the details about each thing.
but i will have behind the scenes photos up soon hopefully

the music video crew is taking a break for a few weeks
so that they can get caught up on all the post-production work on the completed videos..
then we are going to be slammed with work through summer.
and warped tour is coming up and a lot of those bands are wanting videos done too.

i am absolutely in love with what I've been doing lately.
being on set is where I belong.
i love meeting new people
i love working with bands and hearing new music
i have been lucky enough to work with really great guys so far.
we only work with signed, successful bands and all of them have been nice so far.
what's funny is, I've met bands that aren't signed, that think they're a lot better than they really are, and are more arrogant and full of themselves, than bands that are selling 4,000 records in the first month they release a cd.
....interesting. haha


I interviewed with a director and producer from AFI film school and got asked to be apart of a short film they're shooting in 2 weeks.
it's going to be set in the 1920s, HD black and white, and about a vampire.
i am in charge of makeup for the whole cast, and get to do some special fx work, so I'm pretty stoked on that.

I'm celebrating Passover tomorrow, for the first time in years.
i honestly can't remember the last time i celebrated it.
I'm looking forward to it, and to seeing all my dad's side of the family.

then for Easter on Sunday, I'm just spending the day with my parents and sisters.
we're going to ride our horses all day and then have dinner together.

i need to try and find a job during these next couple weeks i have off from the videos.
I'm hoping for a bar tending job.. but I've only got a couple months left before my lease is up and i have to find a new place, so anything to pay the bills might have to do for now.

hmm i think that's about all I've got for now.

until next time,

-S.