Make Yourself

October is not a great month for me, two years in a row.

Waiting, waiting, waiting..that's all I've been doing...

but what's the point?

How long can you play the same game before you realize it's not worth your time and you finally give up, give in and quit?

Take Monopoly for example:

It's one of those "oh it's been so long since I've played, let's play!" sort of things.

It's the game you think you love but once you've been sitting there playing for hours you realize it's really not that fun

because you realize it's exactly the same every time.

It drags on, and several things happen-

someone usually finds a way to cheat, someone wins by a lot,

someone goes completely bankrupt,

or someone quits because they're tired and don't want to play anymore.

I've been playing for years, and when I mistakenly think I'm winning, or that it's tied,

is when I lose.

And no matter how many times I lose, there's always that possibility that the next time I play it will be better.

It's getting redundant.

As for things that truely matter,

I've been ridiculously busy with school and life

I hardly have time for cleaning my house or doing laundry

I have a growing list of friends I need to call back but can't find the time to set aside to do so.

I try to go to bed as early as I can on the nights I don't go out.

Makeup school is kicking my ass but I love it,

I'm learning, I'm improving.

I've been working on a few photoshoots

I worked on a runway show during LA fashion week

I'm preparing to do hair and makeup with a team of girls for a dance show in Long Beach this weekend.

I go out to an indie/electro dance club every Wednesday and love love love it.

There are more things to do during the week than during the weekends

and because of that I am constantly exhausted, but I don't even care.

I'm constantly surrounded by new people

I've been making a lot of new friends

I've been hanging out with a lot of girls, which is reaaally different for me.

I registered to vote today at a Starbucks a few miles away and was the ONLY non-black person in there.. that was interesting. haha

I feel so at home, it's almost been 3 months since I moved.. crazy.

I am sooo happy to be here.

-S.