Make Yourself

This year is so close to being over

the last 5 months have raced by

but they've been so unbelievably amazing.

it's amazing how much can happen

and how much can change within such a short amount of time.

I've been doing photo shoots and fashion shows left and right.

I am endlessly busy

my time is constantly occupied

I'm rarely home

almost every day of every week has something going on.

And I couldn't be happier.

I've watched and felt myself change since I've been here.

change for the better.

discovered myself from scratch.

I was given the chance to go somewhere new and start over.

and I did.

I left behind everything I was identified by and associated with.

no longer someone who anyone had any preconceived notions about.

no longer just identified by

who i am friends with,

who I've dated,

who i used to be friends with,

the bands i used to hangout with,

who i was in high school

I've never known myself outside of all of that completely or all at once.

and i really figured out who i am without it all.

I've never been stronger, happier, more sure of myself, more confident, or more blessed than I am now.

It's a nice feeling to have.

There is so much going on in my life that it's overwhelming,

but it's more exciting than anything I could imagine.

I love school

we've been doing prosthetics for the past 2 weeks.

this is what I came to school for

I love special FX

we took impressions of each other's faces, poured stone into them to make them into molds, picked a character to turn our partner into, sculpted a nose and forehead out of clay onto the molds, then poured stone over those to make another mold to fit over the original, then we filled the altered mold with foam latex and put the original mold on top, the foam in the molds gets baked in an oven and then a foam latex appliance is created.

it's so much work but so much fun.

this is basically the process that is used all the time to make things for film and television.

like in The Grinch for the Who noses.

The next few weeks should be fun- 2 fashion shows, going to Disneyland, possibly some photo shoots, and then it's Christmas break and I'll be able to spend time with my parents at their new place in Orange County and ride the horses they just bought.

Alright, that's all the blogging I have time for tonight.

-S.