Make Yourself

Wow..
I knew I was right, and that I wasn't just crazy.. haha.
it's so fucking weird to see confirmation of things I already thought were true.
It freaks me out how intuitive I am.
it also freaks me out that we really are that connected.
seriously linked together, and no matter what I do I can't break that chain.
even Bri was vicariously feeling him through me..
she can feel my vibes so well that she could literally feel him around me, the same way I could.
shit like that blows my mind.
creeps me out.
and makes my brain hurt from thinking about it.

ugh..
I am ready to close the door again though.
despite how curious I may be,
now is not the time.
too many questions without answers.
and to be honest, there have been too many "second" chances.
it's now limited to one chance per year.
and this year's chance to be apart of my life has already been fucked up and thrown out the window.
be weary of what you hear from others about situations you weren't apart of first-hand.
things aren't always how they seem.

all that's left to say is this:
if someone repeatedly is realizing they've been an asshole, maybe it's time to make a change and finally stop being one..

I hope one day to be as lucky as you, to know what it's like to have someone care so deeply about me...

when you reach step 5 or 9 or whatever one it is that deals with admittance of your sins & making amends with people you've wronged, then maybe i'll be ready to hear you out.
until then, goodluck.