Make Yourself

hmmm
i like this.

risk
chance
passion
discovery
mistakes
joy
fear
love
adventure

i'm all about living on the edges.
bring em on.

walking to the bus stop in the morning reminds me of the month i spent in athens, greece.
the brisk air, the early morning traffic, the unfamiliar buildings.
a little smile creeps across my face every time i'm out.

actually, most of LA reminds me of Athens.
except there are more people that speak english, although not by much haha
and the majority of the building signs are in english.. with the exception of Koreatown and the significantly Jewish area up the street from me.
If there's a culture I love more than the Greeks, it's the Jews (my people) so I'm pretty stoked it's all around me.

I love LA more and more, and I'm afraid that one day that's going to stop.
and then what am i supposed to do? move back to sacramento?
I can't and I won't.
I'm just hoping I continue to love it here,
optimism!
plus, there is so much I still have to discover here,
I think it'll keep me interested for quite some time

i love all of the culture
the constant honking
the realness
the rudeness
the big dirty city
living near the beach
santa monica
places within walking distance
finding new places i want to go everyday
i don't even care about the traffic anymore.
I just know to plan ahead and leave ridiculously early if I need to be somewhere.

for the first time in my life i really feel like i know what i'm doing
and i feel like i'm where i need to be.
everything is falling into place.
the rest of my family is moving down to my side of the state
i got approved for the loan for my school
my grandpa generously decided to pay 6 months of our rent, (that's $12,000 less i don't have to worry about)
my sister and i have managed to live together for a month and have gotten along more than not.
all that's left is:
school starting in a few weeks
finding a bartending job (hopefully I get hired at the place i turned an application into today)
expanding my social network
and maybe finding a down ass guy to spend my limited free time with
although, that last one i'm not anxious for.
I'm absolutely enjoying being independent and living for myself
i couldn't handle someone thinking i want to spend all my time with them right now.
maybe that sounds selfish
but too bad.
this is the ONE time in my life where i am allowed to be selfish.
i am young, ambitious and talented; there's no reason why i shouldn't be living my life exactly how i want to.
which just happens to mean i'm not wasting my time on just any guy that wants my attention.
i have more important things to focus on, like my career and my self-sufficient future.

Time for reading and bed
-S.