Make Yourself

today was a pretty good day overall
I was able to eat more today
got out of bed, walked downstairs
and hungout for a little while.
attempted to watch some movies,
but fell asleep during both of them.

drank some mashed potatoes for dinner.
haha
they were actually pretty good since they were real mashed potatoes just hella thinned down with broth and gravy.
probably had more calories than anything else I've eaten so far,
so that's a good thing.
my mom also blended up this apple crisp thing she made with a bunch of ice cream and soy milk so I was able to have that too.
pretty tasty as far as drinkable foods go.

haha *optimism*

we're gonna go back to so cal tomorrow
stopping by my house first to pick up my cat, before going to my parent's house.
I miss Meeps.
a lot
I've never been more attatched to anything than I am to that damn cat.
we're obsessed with eachother
when I'm not home he seriously gets depressed and just mopes around
my sister said he won't sleep in her room at all,
he just sleeps in my bed alone or lays by my door waiting for me to come back

and when I'm home he follows me around
when I get ready for bed at night he stands in the bathroom and waits while I brush my teeth and then follows me to my room.
any time I wake up and he's not there, if I just call his name he comes running and jumps on my bed with me.
I've never been attatched to an animal like this
it's weird for me
but I love him more than any other boy there is haha.
he picked ME..
I may have gone to the SPCA looking for a kitten
but he was the one that was litterally sticking his paws out to grab me every time I walked by.
love at first sight
as lame or whatever as it sounds
I don't care.
he's my little buddy and he always makes me feel better.
any time I've been sad or crying in my room he comes and lays with me.
so I'm going to get him tomorrow
because I feel bad that I've been gone for a whole week and can't leave him for another week.
it's like having a child haha.
plus, I know he'll make me feel better.

valium's kicking in.
-S