Make Yourself

Valentine's Day
I don't understand the hype with it.
I don't think it's necessary to feel obliged to prove to your significant other that they mean something to you.
if you're together, obviously you care about each other right?
i would appreciate a card, flowers or gift on any random day a lot more than I would appreciate it on a day where someone felt like they "had" to.
and I'm not writing this just because I'm single.
there's only been one Valentine's day that was ever special to me
hanging out with a... friend.. and it didn't even start out as a "date"
it just kind of developed into one
and unexpectedly i received flowers and a little pink elephant stuffed animal.
the fact that it was a surprise is why it meant something.
not because i was expecting anything because i thought that i "should" receive something

to me, valentine's day and anniversaries are not about gifts
yeah, they're nice
but I'd rather spend time with someone or go do something fun and make memories
whatev, maybe it at least helps boost the economy haha

I spent today with my parents.
and i wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
we went to the movies and then came home and watched another movie together
it's been so nice to spend time with them this last week
i'm so lucky to have such an amazing family
my mom has been doing everything she can to take care of me since the surgery.
my parents have been amazing lately.

and all week i've just been watching them interact with eachother
they've been married 25 years and still act like a couple who has just started dating
they're always kissing and flirting
and when most people would think it's disgusting to have their parents doing that stuff
it actually makes me really happy
i love knowing that my parents are still obsessed with each other and madly in love

all i can hope for is to one day find a love like they have. :-)


time for bed
momma and i are driving to Sacramento tomorrow.
thankfully it will be my last trip up there for a few weeks.
don't get me wrong,
it's been amazing spending time up there with everyone
but i've missed LA
i've missed my house and my own bed
i've missed hanging out with my sister
i've missed hanging out with my friends and family down here.

plus, beach season is coming up and I am STOKED about that
I need my tan back, ASAP
i'm gathering a stack of books to read
and will be beachin' it daily and catching up on my reading as soon as this cold weather goes away :-)

dream sweet sugarplums
-S.